I ASKED GOD TO SHOW ME LOVE.
I wanted to "see" the splendor of a God given gift. As I learned about LOVE after praying to God to teach me, I employed it in my daily life. Those who benefited from my efforts felt, at times, as though I was trying too hard. I then had to explain that although it may seem that "they" were receiving alot, it was also "I" who was receiving ENERGIES and PEACE OF MIND as a "reward" of my employment of LOVE. But sometimes people have different interpretations of LOVE. How could they, with THEIR understanding, understand MY love?
I continued to learn about LOVE and kept employing it. I kept receiving more and more and came to be able to DEPEND on the benefits I could receive from my employment of LOVE.
PROVED TO BE AN UNLIMITED GIFT FROM GOD.
All was going well. Then came the unforeseeable. One of the people who was receiving benefits from my LOVE felt a "pressure" from that LOVE. That person explained to me that they felt I had other motives (human in nature) for the LOVE I was employing. I talked with a respected elder and found out that it is not only possible, but highly probable, that people can only receive certain levels of LOVE, and that any level beyond what they are "ready" for will not serve them or LOVE. I was informed that I needed to GAUGE how much LOVE to employ on a person to person basis so as not to OVERWHELM the intended receiver of my LOVE efforts.
SPENT THE NEXT FEW DAYS WITH UNLIMITED AND PAINFUL TEARS.
I thought that I had been shown an unlimited gift from the LORD GOD Himself that had no limits, and now was exposed to the possibility, and possibly the fact, that I could NOT use the full level of LOVE that I was learning. I suffered a few days about this let down until I came upon some thoughts, thoughts that I feel were supplied to me from God. I became aware of the fact that my level of LOVE given does NOT have to be limited. That if any intended "target" of my love could not "handle" my LOVE I could allow them the space they needed while I could spend my time and efforts allowing others to benefit from my LOVE. Thus I would NOT be limited by human understanding, and possibly limited understanding, of LOVE. Also, who am I to force MY understanding of love onto someone else? Who is to say that I am right in my interpretation? This way I would be spending my time and effort with those who feel comfortable with me, while allowing others to spend their time and effort with people THEY feel comfortable with. By following this I would not be forcing my interpretations onto others.
HAD FOUND AN ANSWER.
For while it is true that I might "chase" some people away, to some degree, because they could not handle my interpretation of love, people who would very likely spend more time with me if I limited my love to the degree they felt safe with (as though I could somehow know what that level is, since some of them don't even seem to know for themselves on a day to day basis), the PEACE OF MIND I would forfeit would, at times, not be worth their company. At times it would be worth it, but not when compared to my full love applied. It would be the people who allowed me to be ME and employ my full level of LOVE who's company would supply me with an ultimate level of PEACE OF MIND that true LOVE fuels.
I can never thank the LORD GOD enough for saving me from the limitations of human interpretation of his gift of LOVE.
did I forget to mention that I have noticed that people seem to like it
when other people want their company? We seem to be fueled by being desired
by others. We seem to need to matter. One way to be assured you are wanted?
Supply LOVE. You supply LOVE and you definitely matter.
the level of respect for love it takes to enable you to operate outside
the finite world of your needs, which empowers you to unconditionally serve
the infinite world of love.
*Serve love over and beyond your needs.
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